Intrinsically Ordered
Exploring the intersection of queer identity and catholicism - sharing stories of those who've left, remained, and created their own journeys; providing commentary on the catholic church's harmful teachings; helping those who've been hurt.
Intrinsically Ordered
Christians, What if Being Gay Were a Choice?
For years, I begged God to make me straight. I read every book, watched every lecture, and tried every method of "healing." But what if being queer isn’t something to fix? What if it's something you could choose — not out of rebellion, but out of love, honesty, and freedom?
In this deeply personal episode, I reflect on my journey from internalized homophobia to joyful self-acceptance, from Catholic doctrine to queer community. We explore the concept of identity, the weight of “coming out,” and what it really means to choose love — without conditions.
00:00 – I Begged God to Make Me Straight
01:23 – Would I Choose to Be Straight Now?
02:07 – Growing Up Catholic and Closeted
03:01 – “I Am” vs. “I Experience”
04:13 – Why Christians Fear the Words “I Am Gay”
05:14 – Identity, Honesty, and the Label “Queer”
07:42 – The Fork in the Road: Queer vs. Christian Paths
10:09 – Why I Chose the Queer Path — And Found Life
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